If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman









Here is a little about the book:

 A secret between two sisters.

A lifetime of lies unraveling.

Can one broken family find their way back to each other?

Audrey’s dream as a mother had been for her daughters, Jess and Lily, to be as close as only sisters can be. But now, as adults, they no longer speak to each other, and Audrey’s two teenage granddaughters have never met. Audrey just can’t help feeling like she’s been dealt more than her fair share as she’s watched her family come undone over the years, and she has no idea how to fix her family as she wonders if they will ever be whole again.

If only Audrey had known three decades ago that a secret could have the power to split her family in two, and yet, also keep them linked. And when hostilities threaten to spiral out of control, a devastating choice that was made so many years ago is about to be revealed, testing this family once and for all.

Once the truth is revealed, will it be enough to put her family back together again or break them apart forever?




As I finished this book I took a deep breath and left out a big sigh.  Welcome to real life people, where nobody communicates, we only believe what we THINK we know for certain, and in the end people die.

So Jess and Lily are sisters, and they haven’t spoken for 25 years.  Back when they were kids something happened, something that Jess saw that changed her relationship with her mother and her sister forever, and its something she will never forget.  Years later, when their mother Audrey gets a difficult diagnosis, the sisters unfortunately get pulled back together in order to assist, and Audrey is not going to let them avoid being a family any longer.  Secrets are revealed, lies are exposed, and hearts are broken.

There is such a truth to this story, and when you read it, I think its clearly visible too.  Sitting back and reading the book as an outsider its easy to judge, be critical, be mad at the characters for their choices or decisions. But lets be honest here, put yourself in an one of these situations, with you own kid or family member and ask yourself… What would I do?   No, seriously, what would you do?  Think about it.  I bet you’d be amazed at your HONEST answer.   Without thinking, our immediate response to protect those close to us while sacrificing our own well being is almost basic instinct.  As for my medical opinion, things like this happen a lot more than you know.  What goes on behind closed doors, well, I guess it’s best to say that is why the door is closed in the first place.  The first rule of Nursing Club is…. You Don’t Talk About Nursing Club.  (Unless its fun poop and puke stories, those are hilarious, and boy do I have a ton of them.  They are usually good stories over dinner. )

Hannah Beckerman hit hard with this second novel, and she nailed it.  She dealt with some pretty serious topics here and sometimes those issues could take the book either way, but Hannah got it perfectly. These people were so realistically flawed I almost felt as if I knew them personally.    I know some people really broke down and got emotional over this book, I can see why.  I think the callous ICU nurse in me doesn’t allow me to cry as easily in situations like this, but I did get a little emotional over the last chapter.  I always do during those moments, I always do and I always will.    And that thing you’re forgetting to do…… its Breathe.

My Rating   5 stars  ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Amazing Book.  



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About the Author

Hannah Beckerman is an author and journalist.

She is a freelance features writer and book critic for  The Observer, the FT Weekend Magazine and The Sunday Express, a regular book pundit on the Sara Cox Show on BBC Radio 2, and regularly chairs panels, discussions and interviews at literary festivals and publishing events throughout the UK.

She has chaired numerous book prizes including the Costa Book Awards.




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Serious book loving critical care RN dealing with RA, being married to a surgeon, my 2 crazy dogs, an obsession with crafting, and a mad desire to swing golf clubs (although quite poorly).

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